They Say Write What You Know

They say write what you know

And I did that for a long long time

Only to realise there is so much I don’t know

I don’t know why we had to learn algebra

Or read JRR Tolkien

I don’t know why he swerved

Or how he lost control

I don’t know why you had to be in his way

I don’t know why cancer loves my family

But it does, it really fucking does

I don’t know why his heart gave out

And yet I’m still here

I don’t know why you took that rope

Tied that knot

Why you felt you couldn’t talk to one of us

I don’t even know if it would have changed anything

Anyway

I don’t know why I thought drinking was cool

Why it took so long to realise it wasn’t

I don’t know what it was about her

But I just can’t let her go

I didn’t know heartbreak

Could last this long

I don’t know if there is a god

But if there is

I curse him or her every damn day

I don’t know what you expect me to say

There are no easy answers

I don’t know why she’s still here with me

But I’m so glad she is

I don’t know why people think

I’m a good guy

Or maybe they don’t

And I just think they do

I don’t know

I don’t know why anyone would listen

To wolfmother

Or powderfinger

Or skynews

But they do

I still don’t know where the g-spot is

But I’m not alone there

I don’t know

where they buried John Franklin

or where Atlantis is

I don’t know if Sonny Liston was murdered

But no one should lay there for a week undiscovered

I still don’t know who my grandfather is

But then no one seems to

Most days I don’t even know why I bother

Some days I just don’t

I don’t know how people go on

Where they get the strength

The courage

How they manage to get up each day

But they do

I don’t know why I can’t let go

Why I’m here now

What it is I’m trying to say

I don’t know

They say write what you know

But truth is

I don’t know anymore

What it is that I know

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